2nd, 3rd, 4th & 5th April 2009

Thursday : had wonderful funny times in skewl. had too much time during civics, so i drew LISHYEN's hand. which came out AWESOME! i even surprised myself with my awesome-ness =D. the day was GREAT but the night came out bad. this was the night my boyfriend and i broke up. it was a both party decision kinda thing. he had his college and i miss him everyday, basically college + less time = not working out for me and him. so we ended it. ever since that particular day, my life sucked. we broke up at 11ish at night, obviously me being human i cried. then i went online cos i can't sleep obviously after whatappened. i told kelvin ng =]..he called me after that and gave me a pep-talk thing. so yeah...ended that dreadful night at 3 am and woke up at 6 for the next day for skewl (woohoo =.=).

Friday : Woke up hoping things will turn out better, but i was wrong. thought about him every second. i went to skewl moody..and lifeless. once i reached skewl, put my bags and ran outside of class towards lishyen and khai and started crying. lishyen was nice..she hugged me while i was flooding the skewl away with my tears. the whole day i was miserable. everyone noticed that there was something wrong with me, they asked i ignored.Friday night, had dinner with daddy. got alot of cash =D. after dinner i joined a few friends of mine to mardi to try to release some stress. got home at 3am drunk, puking and straight to bed.


Saturday : i thought getting drunk will at least make me feel better...well kids i learnt my lesson. it doesnt help abit, well it does abit but not entirely x].woke up at 11 or 12 ish and wished my mother happy birthday =]. walked around the house...thought about him, continue walking around then decided to go ONEUTAMA. called up my besty LK and off to ou i went. wanted to watch fast and furious at GSC but it was HOLYMOTHEROFGOD filled with people...so decided to go to TGV..on our way met JASON CHAI who wants to watch that movie too! he joined us and told us shaun was coming..so we went to TGV bought the tickets and met up =]. the movie was OMFGTHEULTIMATE movie of the YEAR!! damn damn chee kik!...and i felt like i forgotten bout him already..but he msged asking to meet up.it all came back..came back just like that in a blink of an eye. bought a drink from a small lil larlar shop near tgv and walked towards osc to meet up with him. peeked through the door and i saw him sitting there with *ehemmm*. so i realized he doesnt need me anymore. without entering the place, i left. went to burger king feeling superb emotional after that. all things started appearing in my mind, thanks to jason and shaun and LK, it got off soon. then around 8 or 9..had dinner with mummy and sis. left ou at 10ish =]. msged HIM and fell asleep

Sunday : woke up tis morning, waited for his msg. waited too long so i went to shower. woke mummy and sis up to get ready and going to THIEN HAO KONG temple in brickfields to kind off pray away the bad lucks, and hope for a miracle!...there were alot of chantings and singing, due to cheng beng i assume. did all my praying, wishing and thanking, so i went to laze around. then he called...we talked and talked then mummy started lecturing me so i had to hang up the phone. after templing i went to AMCORP mall in urm..pj somewhere i think. walked around while texting him. had lunch and SRI MELAKA..then finally wtv i prayed, wished and thanked for came true. he asked me back, basically both of us has been real sad without each other. and i HOPE now that his feelings for me does not decrease no more but incease perhaps.right after getting that msg...i started smiling again. i was happy and being the normal me. i was ME once again. i wont be seeing him for another 5 days, it better go by fast cos summing it up all together, i havent seen him for exactly 12days thats like..OMG! almost 2 weeks!!...ouh and i had a holy flower bath just now =] it was good!

What's love; without being loved back in return.
I don't want us to end; as i dont want to end us.
if your in deep love; then your love for him is deep,
now you should be thinking more bout how to love me
than how much i'm loving you.



i HEART you william =D.
you know i do..

.CrystaL.

.dead and gone.

trying to find my way back home...

after going through what I did so far,
I realize relationship and love are
frequently unexpectable.

a person could love you a minute
and also like another person
a second after that.
why can't it be more simple?
: like sticking to a person for eternity?
.no explanation.no reason.

do i still trust u fully even though i know this may happen?
will this ever happen?

when can i know?

all i'm left out with now is complication and confusion.

so, where do i go from here?

suitable to be told "i'll never LET YOU GO"
;not "i swear you'll find a guy better than me when u start college"
its as if u know that we won't last: and its giving me
very bad hope about us.

i love you with everything in me bii.
when i say i do, its not just another word,
but i really mean it.
hope you feel the same way too
;to be loved permanent and not replaced
by a blonde hair college chick.

.CrystaL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

dear KENG EAN!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY you
powerslut girl =D.


* happy brithday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to KENG EAN!!!!
happy birthday to you.. yay!*


KE is finally 15! wohoo for her =].
it was such a great birthday celebrating day. a day to remember
because it was spent with the WHOLE gang.
everyone was hot, happy and having a blast!

right after skewl..we ran to YF's house
to get all prettied up
then he hopped in this
FUYOHHHICANTBELIEVEMYEYES hot bmw
and went to ou xD.
we met up with aunty KE at chillis where
we were treated with good and amazing food.
and and!!! they had this cup
cakes thing with our innicials on them!

so ubberly cool. me and ls went to the "toilet"
to get ke a present =] we bought her
friendship necklace which is real nice.
anyway here are all the pics.

.CrystaL.

close death experience

It's been exactly a week since i almost got killed.
Lol..okay fine that's a bit over exaggerating.
but its true! i kinda got into a some small fight with
big BIG huge drama last week.

.:. anyway cut to the chase,

i got strangled on last friday
and before anything got worst, she said
sorry to me on the monday.
so we're fine now,

:.: hopefully..
if she's okay, she wont do it again.
the next time she does it,
no more 2nd chance i guess.

Everyone in class was like enjoying the free show.
Things got really loud till class from the
opposite block could hear me shouting at her.
I remember running outta class to chase her,
then i saw all the other students and teachers from
classes behind and opposite approching my class.
but overall..it was a good experience =].
other than bruising my shoulder then i had to go
see some sports doctor, I"M TOTALLY FINE =D

.:. I've fallen for you =]

. CrystaL .

shut up just shut up, shut up

*we try to take it slow
but we're still loosing control

and we try to make it work

but it still ends up the worst

and i'm crazayy

for trying to be your ladayy

i think i'm going crazy*

life goes on as it is,
people come; people go,
i'm tired of being blamed,
for things i did wrong,
and things that i didn't even know about.

its time to put a stop,
to people who have nothing to do with ones life,
to people who just won't stop.

you do know,
your just getting extendedly into some person's life,

because your life isn't interesting enough?
that is just screwed up.

*ashes to ashes; dust to dust,

little red rose; set to rest,

finding out whether is love or lust,
making new memories for the best.*

.CrystaL.

sex or love ?

SEX ! of cos sex..!

that was normal random me =D.
anyway...i feel fat today!!
cos urm...i dunno why but i feel fat =/
gah damn it!
i'm gonna start starving tomorrow!
xD HAHA



so yea, been free lately
so i decided to cam-whoLE(right kawai? xD)
with my white dress which SOMEONE bought...
weee =D

when i was browsing through
my pictured i found a few more things that i
thought had something to do with the dress =]
so might as well i upload them up too!



april's dress x]..she
left it here when she went back to CANADA.
*shh* don't tell her i tried it on!*



cheongsam given to me by yeefern!
thanks hun =] its nice.

{crystal needs to loose more weight =/}

. CrystaL .

. my bad .

I'm at the wrong now.
i shouldn't have accused you.
I know what i did wrong and I'm sorry.

Seriously...lets deal
with this in a matured manner.
No one gets hurt and no one gets whack.

honestly...so far you know me.
do u think i will call a GANG on you?
honey, i think before making any move.
and running you over or hunting
you down will not solve anything at all.

Believe me darling,
I'M OVER YOU and all this bullshit.

lets just go on with life..shall we now?

. CrystaL .