shut up just shut up, shut up

*we try to take it slow
but we're still loosing control

and we try to make it work

but it still ends up the worst

and i'm crazayy

for trying to be your ladayy

i think i'm going crazy*

life goes on as it is,
people come; people go,
i'm tired of being blamed,
for things i did wrong,
and things that i didn't even know about.

its time to put a stop,
to people who have nothing to do with ones life,
to people who just won't stop.

you do know,
your just getting extendedly into some person's life,

because your life isn't interesting enough?
that is just screwed up.

*ashes to ashes; dust to dust,

little red rose; set to rest,

finding out whether is love or lust,
making new memories for the best.*

.CrystaL.

sex or love ?

SEX ! of cos sex..!

that was normal random me =D.
anyway...i feel fat today!!
cos urm...i dunno why but i feel fat =/
gah damn it!
i'm gonna start starving tomorrow!
xD HAHA



so yea, been free lately
so i decided to cam-whoLE(right kawai? xD)
with my white dress which SOMEONE bought...
weee =D

when i was browsing through
my pictured i found a few more things that i
thought had something to do with the dress =]
so might as well i upload them up too!



april's dress x]..she
left it here when she went back to CANADA.
*shh* don't tell her i tried it on!*



cheongsam given to me by yeefern!
thanks hun =] its nice.

{crystal needs to loose more weight =/}

. CrystaL .

. my bad .

I'm at the wrong now.
i shouldn't have accused you.
I know what i did wrong and I'm sorry.

Seriously...lets deal
with this in a matured manner.
No one gets hurt and no one gets whack.

honestly...so far you know me.
do u think i will call a GANG on you?
honey, i think before making any move.
and running you over or hunting
you down will not solve anything at all.

Believe me darling,
I'M OVER YOU and all this bullshit.

lets just go on with life..shall we now?

. CrystaL .

" sitting where I stand "

:
It all started when you got me all caught up in LOVE.
I appreciated you. i cherished you and most
importantly...i TRUSTED you.


you had me fooled.
I was wrong about you.
you did all this behind me.


I was stupid.
i shuold have known. but yet I
still called you even though we were distanced
far apart places.


I was fooled by your words.
you told me you "loved me"
and i believed you.


Found out the truth almost a week later.
and you were proud about it.
i just had to leave you..
you had me love stoned. Because of you
promises are mainly shit to me now.


What is the use of this broekn heart?
its not much you say.
put yourself in my position...
you'll then know.


It's better of left to lay there.
effortsly alone..without pushes.
Because what you did...will never change my
thinking about you.

Your a self-absorbed,
fake-emotioned,
mainly immature,
2 timing,
ego-maniac
...THING...(nothing will change that)



.CrystaL.

:: Its Not Over ::

I don't need regrets..
all i need is the truth.





. CrystaL .

.Home.

All the things you planned for the 14th.
whats the point now? the card, the dinner plan and all
those other crap...you should have thought about all these
before doing that behind me. what you did, i don't think its
forgetable or even forgiveable.

Enjoy these days of yours, when regrets start
creeping up your skin. the matter of
sadness or (if you do really have feelings) tears,
can never compare with the pain you
have put me through.

Beginning of All those nights you tell me, "you love me"
and then it turned to only "ly".. i still stood by you
like expecting the rain to come,
i was stupid.

Your all wrap up with lies and pure fakeness.
i should have just listen to what my
friends warned me about...but i dint
care about what they had to say...i followed my heart
and thats when shit happens.

At least now i know. I'll never see
you as the same old person,
the person i started a conversation with
saying ; "she thinks your gay"


His a whole new person now. She hopes
he knows. Those nights' memories
she kept them sacred. he just
made her burn everything
and distinguish them with fallen tears.
her anger raises the fire...
no matter how much she tries to distinguish them,
the fire keeps burning on and on,
bringing her back to square one...
completely alone

.CrystaL.

FUG YOU

your one of the biggest dumbass i have met so far.
no one..and i mean no one dared to do what you did
to me. now i understand why you needed your gang so badly.
because your one big piece of loaded bull shit
and its written all over you face.

hope you remember..WHO was
the one who helped you when you were
having problems with HER and WHAT
i did to help you when YOU were fucking
drunk the other night.

you think straight now...
and i hope you regret =]...regret lying to me
and doing things behind my back.
and enjoy your new life with HER again...
but this time..be more terrified.

good luck darling =]..you'll need it. trust me

.CrystaL.