mid term

hey world :D its been a while.
tell me about it. being form5 sucks.
especially if u fucked up ur form4.
then ur definitely screwed once u reached form5.
nothing much has change though.
just trying to get my fatass to study D:

so this are just a lil pics of my lil bday.
since the exams were near. couldnt celebrate with my babes.
but they still made my day. i love everyone of them.

thanks girls & guys. bros' and siss' for life la.

.xoxo. i still <3 my boyfie.CrystaL.    21/5 

fairytale

if i say it doesn't bother me,
well maybe i'm just trying to cover it up.
for all i know, i wish i could bring those times back
or maybe just hold on to it for a lil longer.
probably till the day
 i could understand or even spell the word appreciate.
since i do now, i guess i can just try to
cherish those 9 years of my life having
a normal family. 
even if i hardly remember them, i know i will someday. 
i' could forgive you for what you did,
but never forget. 
i've seen what she became and
how she reacted towards it.
it wasnt easy not knowing what everything will turn out like.
i was young and innocent.
came back from school a day,
see the maid packing up ur clothes and putting them in luggages.
the next thing you know it, you never came back for dinner anymore.
there wasnt anyone shouting at us cos the house was in a mess,
no more "kuih-kuih" for breakfast,
no more lap to sit on while watching the tv,
no more Bloomberg channels to doze off to.
it just ended like that.
even if we still keep in touch,
we still go for dinners..
its still really nice to go out as a family sometimes.
me + you + mummy + cheche + yuann.
2009. remember that year.



i guess things just change,
whether you want them to or not.
but thanks to you, i've learnt something really valuable.  
i'd never marry a man like you.
and i if i do, i won't be the one walking out the door.
wtv it is.

mom + dad = i still love you. 


.xoxo.
.CrystaL.

PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi saw a pork chop at a halal place! Wan eat? :P

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    Huikwan Lee ya I saw, you eat 1st, :)

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    PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi dowan la all fats no meat. Mm ho sek wan

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    Huikwan Lee ppl house no oil ma,use her and cook lor

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    PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi haha ya ya ! Fat bitch , she stare wat wor! Lol maybe cause you dowan eat her so she angry you .

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    Huikwan Lee maybe she jealous? Haha, Yerr I don't want eat her, so fucking ugly.'vomit'

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    Shih Onn waliao! you 2 talking bout who? i wanna know! hahaha i very kepo!

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    PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi some despo bitch that stare cock at Hui Kwan. At osc now. Ah your lil sis hate her too wan ar. Know anot?

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    Shih Onn oh i know! ahhahahahaha. why you all dont like her le? her bf our friend wor. :S

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    PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi so! Lucky he in australia. We give face never say her name di le hehe. Same reason why everyone else dont like her. Lol

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    Shih Onn hahah, okay chilling la. she didnt do anything to me so i have no grudge. :) i just kepo. chilling milling.

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    PrincessBubu Isabelle Ooi chilling. Hehe just fun to insult losers. :) its like a girls thing hehe

**** LIKE ****
open up your eyes to more productive things in life.
grow up and put your head up high.
i hope you'll see that i *like* your comment on fb.
well no worries. i don't blame you.
but please think wisely now and start letting things go.
i had nothing against you till this appeared.
so basically good luck in life.
and thanks for telling me i'm fat.
better fat than ugly right?
.xoxo.
.CrystaL.

gucci gucci

22.9.10

so many things going on.

so much drama, so much bullshit.

all i wanted to do is run away from all of it

or just jump.

jump and see everything flash back as my life is at its end.

to see what i've done wrong and the pain i've brought to everyone.

wtv thats done is done.

gotta get a move on with life.

i've learnt so much and went through it all with tears side by side.

i just hope i really got the taste of my own medicine.

sorry to all of you. you know who you are.

i'm gonna change for the better, change for my family and change for you.

thank you.

<3.xoxo.

.CrystaL.

.Luxury.

15.9.10
its been a pretty long time since i wrote.
i guess thats cos life was being stable at that point.
well for now, its been so different. so much things were learnt.
sometimes i just wish i was back in kindergarden when
guys had cooties, wearing matching coloured clothes and the toughest decision made in
a day is picking a crayon. everything was so much easier then.



thats my topic for today i guess, decisions.
i've made a huge decision lately and
i really hope its the right one. i'm sorry if
i've hurt you because of this. nothing has been the same since.
i know my wrong and i regret. but i gotta live too. if you love me,
and if u really think you do. pls understand. this was not plan.
and there isnt anyone else. god bless you. take care...pls. <3>

*goodbye my almost lover,

goodbye my hopeless dreams,

i'm trying not to think about you,

cant you just let me be.

so long my luckless romance,

my back is turned on you,

should've known you'd bring me heartache,

almost lovers always do*

.xoxo.

.CrystaL.

nightmare.

life sucks.
i hate being my size. its just irritating sometimes.
ppl who love you, dont wanna hurt your feelings so they
tell you your not fat. which is true..but your not thin either.
so where do i stand? and ppl who dislike you would
go around saying your fat. so which one should i believe?
thats where it sucks. according to me.. i usually go with the negative side.
maybe its because i feel shallow inside, who knows?
it hurts to know that ppl call you fat. i know i am fat..
you don't have to go around screaming it to the whole world.
what has my weight ever done to you.? my weight
is a really sensitive issue to me. maybe to a million other girls out there.
to get a comment about it sucks. so all those thin girls out there, be happy of what you have.
stop being bulimic and live your life by enjoying food while you can.
cos fat ppl like me gotta suffer and control the type and amount
of food we consume to make the size we are now
consistent or smaller. i dont mind comments to me in a nice way..
but i dont like ppl bitching about it behind my back and LOUDLY. ouh so louadly.
so you...watch your words. i'm lettin you off now, cos u dont know where you stand.
whereas for the next time, i'll just stretch my right arm and use 4muscles
to slap your motha fuckin face out. who knows..
maybe when i slap you i can retarderfy your retarded face.
don't worry i still respect you because your bf is my fren =]
but for you..i dun give a flying fuck about you.
i maybe fat hun...but i sure am lucky not to be ugly like you.
so basically..FUCK YOU!

.xoxoxo.
.CrystaL.

Holland

its time.
to let you go.
i've done my part.
and you should know.

you were more than a friend.
a friend i would love to keep.
you meant alot to me.
thats why i saved you from the weeps.

well..its time to leave you alone now.
as i can see.
you only need me when your down and low.
when you need my help again, call my name.
i'll put all your miseries in flame.

i enjoyed those 5am nights on skype.
memories like that will never be erased.
i'll be missing you presence while your gone.
but i know you need your space.
teddy.

*so baby don't worry,you are my only,
you won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
you'll be my only, no need to worry,
baby are you down down down down down,
down..down,
baby are you down down down down down,
down..down,
even if the sky is falling down.*




.xoxo.
.CrystaL.