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WoW! .its been a while since my last post...so...harlo =D...



I've been well lately...getting better after a terrible break-up like a month and a few days ago but hey at least I'm half way back up on my feet. thats what i am suppose to do i guess...to stand up after falling. there isn't anything else i can choose from anyway. well i found out he love another girl now, i cant literally blame him. at least he told me about it and yea maybe i took it harshly and badly that time but when i think rationally about it now, he did the right thing about telling me and not have an affair when we were together.

I'd just like to thank a couple of people who helped me truly in this when i was at my worst. mostly their my friends and family. well firstly...I'd like to thank inigo a lot. he was the one who was there for me that exact time when i was about to kill myself and he had the heart to come over and talk to me and comfort me at 10-11pm that very night. I'm greatful to have met such a caring fellow. without him that very second...i wont still be who i am now. things he taught and said to me were so true and so helpful. i owe him big time =].

i would also like to thank lai kuan, keng ean, jason and shaun who helped me literally take my mind of him. and I'm sorry that i had to emofy most of our yam char'ing time. and to my other friends, i appreciate you for lending your ears and listening to my problems. i don't know how to thank you more.

most importantly...my family. i love you, all of you. even though things you guys said stinged a lil but hey it was to make me stronger. thank you ZHE who called all the way from Canada just to check up on me and give me some word of advice and Pa also who called form Singapore. you may not always be there when i needed help or counsel but i'll still love you. every single one of you guys.


guess thats all for the thanking part...and yea well me and my ex are friends now. even though it makes me feel a bit awkward to talk to him now and then but its way better than holding a grudge on him when i know nothing will change or be the same again. so i gotta wake up sometime and move on with my life. it may be hard...but as long as i start its better than just laying there restlessly .

to trust someone again is the hardest part. after what has happen and what just did happen it wont be that easy. i will forgive him and this but i don't think I'll ever forget about it. this is 1 of the most painful thing that happened so far. but hey, it wont be right if i kept him with me while there was her there anyway


i just need to look over the brick wall thats blocking me and continue my journey,
there may be glass and thorns now and then,
but I'll reach the sunset eventually.






.CrystaL.