Priceless

22.5.12

I'm just speechless today. so much love. 
Yap Kitson <3 this one's for u.

honestly i never thought of calling you mine,
we were once strangers; life's from different ground,
both looking for love without any sign,
eventually met each other and guess what we found.

the day i saw you i thought you were real cute,
focused in the game; words of mute,
we never said more than a hi and bye,
look at us now; look how much time has fly.


i had you in mind,
prolly for a second in time,
knowing i wasn't the kinda girl you'll date,
right until fate took it's state.



it all started on 3rd April 2012,
the day that i officially met you,
you had that sense of humour i admire,
then i knew it was you that i desire.

had a dilemma on making a move on you,
cos i wasn't sure if whatever John said was true,
i dissolved my pride and followed my heart,
you replied within an hour and that was when it all start.




then it was the moment of getting to know one another,
the rumours and the ppl against us; we didn't bother,
we had our fun with the flirts, dates and all,
i never realise how deep i actually fall.

that brings us here on this lovely day,
the day i stare to into your glossy eye,
left there with tears and nothing to say,
knowing that i found the guy i could actually rely.

we've gone thru arguments, fights and cries,
we've gone thru laughters, hugs and butterflies,
knowing all these times spent with you were worthwhile,
knowing all i wanna see is you while walking down that aisle.

so hear me out babyboy,
i'm here; i'm serious; i'm not a toy,
i'm willing to fly over mountain and sea,
as long as you're in this rough batle with me.

my guardian angel.

.xxoo.

.CrystaL.

Tears

21.5.12

Things don't always work out :/
people don't always get  along.
but to give up is another thing.

couples fight in relationships only
to have fallen deeper after.
by avoiding it..we'll end up nowhere.

therefore, i love fights. i really do! if it
involves me and u. cos from there...
i'll know we'll just love each other more.

unfortunately, not everyone agrees with the same old thing.
regardless..i still love you. i'm sorry

.xxoo.
.CrystaL.

When LIFE gives u lemons.

19.5.12

people don't know what's it like to be another person.
you can always try to understand or
try to put urself in their postion.
but things just dont come out or feel right.

everyone goes thru shit just like how everyone needs to shit.
some shits are good(easier to release)
and there are some shits that are just pain in the damn ass (literally)
but we can never just give up can we?
jerry never gave up on eating tom.
spongebob never gave up on making squirward like him.
i never gave up when i lost my dad to a cunt.
i never gave up when i constantly thought i found love and lost love.

BUT...
through all the shits, you'll actually
realise what you need the most in your life.
i've found what i needed. i already have all i could ask for.
i may not be the richest mofo, the smartest nerd

or the prettiest model. 
but...
i have everything under control.
i have the people i need to keep me going.
i have my N5. i have my healthy mom and sisters.
and i found my new hopefully soon to be boyfriend. 
and honestly i thank god for how things roll now.
if those things didn't happen in my past.
i would end up with nothing right now. 

N^5
yeefern, lishyen, laikuan, kengean
Those are the ones that kept me alive.
those were the ones that had my back even when i was in the wrong.
those were the ones i knew i still had a reason to live.
every teenager once had their life on crisis.
the amount of times i wanted to just take a break
from life forever. they got me
to pause for a moment and think.
it never ends between us.
the laughs we shared.
the gossips we told.
the bitches we bitched of.
the time we spared.
it would all never end.
i knew i had them. i knew i would always have them.
their all i need to keep me going :')
even so, we would all still have to grow out of high skewl.
college starts and life changes.
even tho we'll get new frens.

new ppl in our lives.

but it's never the same without u guys around.

we just understand one another.

we love each other like family.we need each other like cars need petrol to carry on running.
thus..
if any of u guys need me 
i'm never too far, too busy or too corrupted
to run a mile to where u may be.
<3 forever and always N5

.xxoo..CrystaL.

Dreams

15.5.12

It has been a long time since anything was written here.
I've been so caught up with so many things that made
me realise and learn more. So i'm gonna start out with this post.

Every girl has a dream just like how every guy has a fantasy.
Lucky for me..i think i am on the right track.
I met this guy. It may be soon or so but he was the 
opportunity of my lifetime. He is that 1 of a billion
everyone speaks of. He is so close to perfect that it
scares me. 

I'm really just thankful for his existence now. We
may last or we wont. All i know is that...for the past 1 month and
13 days..i've never laughed so much and had so much fun in love.
You made me feel like i was me. i didnt have to portray or put on 
an act as if i was someone or somewhat different. i could be
as rough, as retarded, as fucked up or as lifely as i wanna be.
because i know that your exactly like me :')

What else should i say or could i say? i'm head over heels. 
i'm climbing mountains instead of rocks. I won a pot of gold
instead of looking for a rainbow. i found love even when 
i wasnt looking.

So hear me out if your reading this:

I've been through mountain and sea,
I've settled down every problems that could possibly be,
But just one lil thing thats been on my mind for so long,
How is it possible to love one this strong?

You're charismatic, smart and just one of a kind,
When even tho you're just you; it blows my mind,
I feel so blessed to have collided with your soul,
I commit you my heart as your hands are mine to hold.

Thank you for loving me without expecting non in return,
Because of you, I have not taught but obtain much to learn,
You lessoned me strength, care, love and tolerance,
I'm just afraid one day i'll end up troubling you with burdens.

You were there for me even when the sun isnt shinning,
you were there for me through out my whining,
So on this day i owe this gratitude to your life,
Cos i know for sure i want to be your wedded wife.

But for now we will enjoy each moment and time spent together,
Since things may or may not be meant to be forever,
At least in 10 years when i look back through the path of my memory,
I'd know that i did the right thing for choosing you to marry.  

One and only

<3 Yap Kitson
.xxoo.
.CrystaL.