nightmare.

life sucks.
i hate being my size. its just irritating sometimes.
ppl who love you, dont wanna hurt your feelings so they
tell you your not fat. which is true..but your not thin either.
so where do i stand? and ppl who dislike you would
go around saying your fat. so which one should i believe?
thats where it sucks. according to me.. i usually go with the negative side.
maybe its because i feel shallow inside, who knows?
it hurts to know that ppl call you fat. i know i am fat..
you don't have to go around screaming it to the whole world.
what has my weight ever done to you.? my weight
is a really sensitive issue to me. maybe to a million other girls out there.
to get a comment about it sucks. so all those thin girls out there, be happy of what you have.
stop being bulimic and live your life by enjoying food while you can.
cos fat ppl like me gotta suffer and control the type and amount
of food we consume to make the size we are now
consistent or smaller. i dont mind comments to me in a nice way..
but i dont like ppl bitching about it behind my back and LOUDLY. ouh so louadly.
so you...watch your words. i'm lettin you off now, cos u dont know where you stand.
whereas for the next time, i'll just stretch my right arm and use 4muscles
to slap your motha fuckin face out. who knows..
maybe when i slap you i can retarderfy your retarded face.
don't worry i still respect you because your bf is my fren =]
but for you..i dun give a flying fuck about you.
i maybe fat hun...but i sure am lucky not to be ugly like you.
so basically..FUCK YOU!

.xoxoxo.
.CrystaL.

Holland

its time.
to let you go.
i've done my part.
and you should know.

you were more than a friend.
a friend i would love to keep.
you meant alot to me.
thats why i saved you from the weeps.

well..its time to leave you alone now.
as i can see.
you only need me when your down and low.
when you need my help again, call my name.
i'll put all your miseries in flame.

i enjoyed those 5am nights on skype.
memories like that will never be erased.
i'll be missing you presence while your gone.
but i know you need your space.
teddy.

*so baby don't worry,you are my only,
you won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
you'll be my only, no need to worry,
baby are you down down down down down,
down..down,
baby are you down down down down down,
down..down,
even if the sky is falling down.*




.xoxo.
.CrystaL.

1.5.10

my birthday sucked. i guess wateva happened iin the morning
spoiled the whole day. my sister took the time to
organise a surprise party for me when she saw
my post on FB. hey...at least she cared. well now i really know
who are TRUE friends right? but..wtv that my sister took
her time to do...dint make up for the pain i was going tru.
so yea...i dunno when its gonna end, but all i
can say is that it wont last that long.i'm disappointed in you.
in BOTH of you..sigh. hell knows why it happened to me.
i've been too much of an asshole to deserve this i guess.
well..thats all for now.

.xoxoxoxoxo.
.CrystaL.