if i say it doesn't bother me,well maybe i'm just trying to cover it up.
for all i know, i wish i could bring those times back
or maybe just hold on to it for a lil longer.
probably till the day
i could understand or even spell the word appreciate.
since i do now, i guess i can just try to
cherish those 9 years of my life having
a normal family.
even if i hardly remember them, i know i will someday.
i' could forgive you for what you did,
but never forget.
i've seen what she became and
how she reacted towards it.
it wasnt easy not knowing what everything will turn out like.
i was young and innocent.
came back from school a day,
see the maid packing up ur clothes and putting them in luggages.
the next thing you know it, you never came back for dinner anymore.
there wasnt anyone shouting at us cos the house was in a mess,
no more "kuih-kuih" for breakfast,
no more lap to sit on while watching the tv,
no more Bloomberg channels to doze off to.
it just ended like that.
even if we still keep in touch,
we still go for dinners..
its still really nice to go out as a family sometimes.
me + you + mummy + cheche + yuann.
2009. remember that year.
i guess things just change,
whether you want them to or not.
but thanks to you, i've learnt something really valuable.
i'd never marry a man like you.
and i if i do, i won't be the one walking out the door.
wtv it is.
mom + dad = i still love you.
.xoxo.
.CrystaL.
